Sarah Ferguson SECRET: Duchess says she was ‘destroyed by self-hatred’ over weight
SARAH Ferguson revealed her years of struggle with weight gain, and how she was so overwhelmed with “self-hatred” that she turned to comfort eating to cope.
The Duchess of York spoke about her life-long battle with weight gain, revealing how she was “destroyed” by from feelings of guilt following her parents’ abrupt divorce. Sarah said:
“When my parents divorced, I didn’t have a parent who was telling me the truth. I found out in 1974 through a newspaper what was happening.
“And I felt, I believed, that I had done something wrong. I think it’s really important that children don’t feel that.
“The fact that we divorced had absolutely nothing to do with the girls.
Sarah explained how guilty feelings from her parents’ divorce led to a weight gain battle she endured for most of her life.
The Duchess added: “But I remember thinking I was responsible for my parents splitting up — because I’d cut my hair.
“And because I wasn’t good enough. And that was when I began to comfort eat, and why I’ve had a weight problem all my life.”
Sarah said comfort eating had caused a “vicious circle” with her weight, because she would constantly beat herself up whenever she gained a couple of kilograms.
In the Daily Mail interview she added: “It’s why I have total empathy with what it is like to be destroyed by self-hatred, because when you comfort eat you put on weight, and then beat yourself up for comfort eating. It is such a vicious circle.
“I comfort-ate all my life from the age of 13. I started when I was at boarding school, when I heard my parents were getting divorced. I got up to 14-and-a-half stone.”
The Duchess of York previously revealed how she endured years of hurtful comments from the public, who once nicknamed her the “Duchess of Pork” after she gained weight due to constant binge eating.
Speaking on a podcast with TV presenter Emma Forbes, the Duchess said: “Now I’m used to it, but it’s very soul-destroying when you walk into a room and know most people will walk out and say, ‘Oh, we never realised you’re actually really interesting or you’re passionate about charity work.”
The Duchess said it was “soul destroying” facing vile verbal abuse from the public, and revealed how people had already judged her based on negative comments in the press.
She previously revealed: “One of the worst headlines said 82 per cent would rather sleep with a goat than Fergie. It’s never left me.
“I do believe that, in the 30 years of my public life, many people believe what they read. They are going to have this judgment of me.”
Sarah said she wanted to be as “beautiful and thin” as her sister-in-law, the late Princess Diana – who allegedly suffered from bulimia.
Source: EXPRESS CO UK