KATE Middleton’s younger brother, James Middleton, has revealed his private battle with depression he calls a “cancer of the mind” as he explains why he withdrew from his family and friends.
James Middleton, 31, has spoken out about his struggle with clinical depression with devastating honesty and courage. In an article for The Daily Mail, Mr Middleton described how he felt a “complete failure” and found it difficult to do even simple tasks such as opening emails or communicate with those he loved best. He says he felt compelled to speak about his mental health open because it is precisely what his sister Kate, 37, and brother-in-law Prince William, 36, are advocating through their mental health charity Heads Together.
Mr Middleton has detailed his struggle with clinical depression that began in 2016.
In a powerfully honest account he describes the illness as a “cancer of the mind” and says that speaking openly feels as if a great weight has been lifted.
James described his struggle: “It’s not a feeling but an absence of feelings.
“You exist without purpose or direction.
“I couldn’t feel joy, excitement or anticipation – only heart-thudding anxiety propelled me out of bed in the morning.”
I wouldn’t wish the sense of worthlessness and desperation, the isolation and loneliness on my worst enemy. I felt as if I was going crazy
“I didn’t actually contemplate suicide – but I didn’t want to live in the state of mind I was in either.”
“I also felt misunderstood; a complete failure.
“I wouldn’t wish the sense of worthlessness and desperation, the isolation and loneliness on my worst enemy. I felt as if I was going crazy.”
He said that his privileged life did not make him immune to depression and does not believe that having a public profile has made it harder for him.
In fact, he said that without his association with the Royal Family he would not have found an outlet to voice his story.
Source: EXPRESS CO UK