Meghan Markle moving diary entry – terrified of school bullies and not fitting in

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Meghan Markle moving diary entry – terrified of school bullies and not fitting in

MEGHAN Markle feared that she would be forced to eat lunch on her own every day at school because she did not fit in.

Meghan said that feminism is about fairness Image GETTY
Meghan said that feminism is about fairness Image GETTY

Young Meghan busied herself with clubs and other activities at lunchtime so she did not have to risk eating alone.

Meghan revealed the secret on her now defunct lifestyle blog The Tig in a post in 2014 to celebrate her birthday.

As Meghan turned 33 she reflected on how it had taken her many years to find happiness.

In the very personal post titled “Birthday suit”, Meghan described her twenties as “brutal” and her teens as “even worse”.

Meghan said she “fell somewhere in between” the cliques at school because she was biracial.

Meghan said: “My 20s were brutal – a constant battle with myself, judging my weight, my style, my desire to be as cool/as hip/as smart/as ‘whatever’ as everyone else.

Meghan and Harry were all loved up during their Australian royal tour Image GETTY
Meghan and Harry were all loved up during their Australian royal tour Image GETTY

“My teens were even worse – grappling with how to fit in, and what that even meant.

“My high school had cliques: the black girls and white girls, the Filipino and the Latina girls. Being biracial, I fell somewhere in between.

So everyday during lunch, I busied myself with meetings – French club, student body, whatever one could possibly do between noon and 1pm – I was there.

“Not so that I was more involved, but so that I wouldn’t have to eat alone.”

But Meghan revealed that at 33 years old she was finally happy.

She added: “And I say that so

When Meghan wrote the post in August 2014 she was busy filming US legal drama Suits, her best-known acting role.

In the touching message, Meghan urged her followers “to know that you’re enough”.

As a birthday gift, Meghan asked readers “to be kind to yourself”.

Then then 33-year-old said: “So for my birthday, here’s what I would like as a gift: I want you to be kind to yourself. I want you to challenge yourself.f

“I want you to stop gossiping, to try a food that scares you, to buy a coffee for someone just because, to tell someone you love them… and then to tell yourself right back.

“I want you to find your happiness. I did. And it’s never felt so good. I am enough.”

Meghan closed The Tig – described as a “hub for the discerning palate” – in April 2017.

Meghan and Prince Harry announced their engagement months later in November.

Meghan married Harry in May 2018 at St George’s Chapel, Windsor Castle, becoming the Duchess of Sussex.

The full post said: “I am 33 years old today. And I am happy. And I say that so plainly because, well…it takes time. To be happy. To figure out how to be kind to yourself. To not just choose that happiness, but to feel it.

“My 20s were brutal – a constant battle with myself, judging my weight, my style, my desire to be as cool/as hip/as smart/as ‘whatever’ as everyone else.

“My teens were even worse – grappling with how to fit in, and what that even meant. My high school had cliques: the black girls and white girls, the Filipino and the Latina girls. Being biracial, I fell somewhere in between.

“So everyday during lunch, I busied myself with meetings – French club, student body, whatever one could possibly do between noon and 1pm- I was there. Not so that I was more involved, but so that I wouldn’t have to eat alone.

“I must have been about 24 when a casting director looked at me during an audition and said ‘You need to know that you’re enough. Less makeup, more Meghan.’

“You need to know that you’re enough. A mantra that has now engrained itself so deeply within me that not a day goes by without hearing it chime in my head.

“That five pounds lost won’t make you happier, that more makeup won’t make you prettier, that the now iconic saying from Jerry Maguire – ‘You complete me’ – frankly, isn’t true. You are complete with or without a partner. You are enough just as you are.

“So for my birthday, here’s what I would like as a gift: I want you to be kind to yourself. I want you to challenge yourself.

“I want you to stop gossiping, to try a food that scares you, to buy a coffee for someone just because, to tell someone you love them…and then to tell yourself right back.

“I want you to find your happiness. I did. And it’s never felt so good. I am enough.”

Source: EXPRESS CO UK